So I have returned to my blog after what has been another extended break away from it over the past few weeks. Unfortunately I had hit what I can only describe as writers block. I sat at my laptop several times and started typing but didn’t know how to or what to write. There have been a number of reasons for this, firstly there is the fact that let’s face it, I’m a dyslexic blogger, as many of you who read this will be able to relate to, sometimes I just can’t get any words from my brain out onto paper no matter how hard I try. This is something that causes us dyslexics a lot of trouble during our time in education, thankfully I’m finished all of that and all it affects now is when I want to write a new blog. Another reason I’ve been experiencing a mental block is because all the issues I raised in my previous blog are still affecting me. Life is tough and I’m finding it difficult to cope but thankfully I have a great support network around me in the form of my family and close friends and I’m getting through it. For those who have emailed me since I posted my last blog to ask how I and granny are, I would like to thank you for your concern, it means a lot that people are thinking about you, especially when some of the emails were from pure strangers who I’ve never met but have been following my blog so thank you. To let you know, Granny is still in the same condition as she was when I wrote that last blog, fighting hard and holding her own against all the odds.
I thought I would never end the mental block but over the past few weeks some of my friends and family asked me when I would be writing my next post and it kept me thinking that I need to get back to my normal self and start writing again. Also on Thursday last, #IrishBlogHour took place on twitter and after chatting and networking with other Irish bloggers for an hours and reading some blogs and receiving feedback on my blog I managed to convince myself I would sit down and write no matter what came out. Then on Saturday I received an email from someone saying that now that September was upon us she has returned to school and as a student with both dyslexia and dyspraxia like myself, she has on many occasions felt like giving up but when someone shared my blog with her back in January she enjoyed reading it and started to follow it. She told me that it has inspired her to keep going at school and she has found new confidence in herself and has picked up a number of different coping mechinisms and learning techniques and tricks which have helped her. Over the summer while I was away from my blog due to personal difficulties she missed it but she was away from school and didn’t need the motivation as much but now that school is back she asked if I could post more blogs as she said until reading my story she honestly thought that she was not going to achieve anything as a result of her dyslexia and dyspraxia but she no longer thinks that as she sees all I have achieved and she said that the sky is the limit to what can be achieved with the right attitude, some hard work and determination. Until reading this email I didn’t realise that my blog was helping people this much and it gave me that extra boost I needed to sit down and overcome my mental block I was experiencing.
So enough about that and onto today’s blog topic, its one I have promised I would write about for a while…. learning to drive. Your probably wondering how dyslexia would affect learning to drive but you would be amazed how difficult it made the experience and when you throw my dyspraxia on top of that it was a recipe for disaster. As I’ve outlined in previous blogs, my dyspraxia affects my hand-eye coordination, my special awareness / depth perception and reaction time. My dyslexia makes me process a message at a slower speed then the average person, read road sign slower/not understand what I have read (that’s if it’s a once off sign with lots of information on it, I understand the everyday signs such as a stop sign when I see it). So with all these difficulties the thought of learning to drive was quite petrifying as let’s face it, a car is a big piece of machinery that can cause death to yourself or others if a mistake is made while using it, so I was a nervous wreck at the thought of getting behind the wheel. Because of this I avoided driving for as long as possible and where most young people jump at the opportunity to learn to drive as soon as they hit the legal age, I was happy to stick to public transport as it seemed less stressful.
Saying that I was a slight bit curious and at the age of 19 I did make an attempt to learn to drive. Dad took me out in his car and with as much patients as he could find, (it took a lot as I really wasn’t any good) he started to teach me. The biggest difficulty I was having was the gears and the gearbox. Due to my lack of coordination I couldn’t grasp the concept of engaging the clutch, releasing the accelerator, moving the gearstick and then slowly releasing the clutch and engaging the accelerator again all within a matter of moment. It just wasn’t happening and many of my friends know that no matter how hard I tried myself and the gearbox could never become friends and it resulted in a lot of noises coming from dads car that made him make a face I’ve never seen him make before or since. He was horrified of the damage I was no doubt encoring on his car. Eventually after months of trying to no avail I decided that I was very content with my public transport and I gave up the attempts to learn to drive.
Then last year as I was sitting in work having finished college, I was coming to the end of my initial 3 month contract with the company and there had not been a mention of extending my contract yet and I realised that even though this company was 15 minutes by train followed by a 10 minute walk away from home, not every job offer was going to be accessible by public transport and I thought it was time for me to take on the challenge of learning to drive again. It was just a few weeks after I had received my final year college results and I knew I was getting a first class honours degree so I knew that I had never let my difficulties beat me before and I had no intention of letting them get the better of me now. I sat back and though about learning to drive as if it were a subject at college and I began to wonder if any of my supports / learning techniques could help me, then it hit me. If I removed the biggest stress factor I could worry about the other challenges after. The biggest stress factor was my lack of coordination and attempting to work gears and a gearbox so I went away and bought an automatic car. 2 pedals, 1 to go (the accelerator) and 1 to stop (the break), no gears, no stress, this would be perfect.
Dad took me out again and began to teach me the basics before I got lessons from a driving instructor and suddenly everything felt much easier. I felt more confident as I knew I could concentrate on driving and what was happening around me and not worry one bit about changing gears as it would do that itself for me. I was much happier so I went and got my 12 driving lessons form a registered driving instructor and according to the road safety authority there are actual lesson guidelines and certain things to be covered in each of the 12 lessons but they are designed for someone learning to drive a manual car so there is lots of time spent on gears in each lesson so we were able to skip these bits and spend more time building up my driving experience, learning the rules of the road and how to drive the car safely and confidently. Following my 12 lessons I decided I wouldn’t rush straight in and do the test, instead I would continue to drive around building up my experience and confidence before applying for the test. I did this for a few months and then applied for the driving test and back in June I did the test and passed and now have my full licence less than a year after buying the car and learning to drive.
Many of you may be reading this and thinking to yourself that you don’t see how this is a big deal as people are passing their driving test every day, but until you experience the difficulties of dyslexia and dyspraxia you won’t understand how much of an achievement it was to learn to drive and pass the test. now saying that I’m not claiming to be a fantastic driver and I’m not saying I don’t experience any difficulties, my dyspraxia still affects my special awareness, depth perception, reaction speed etc. and as a result of this my brothers are always slagging me off for the way I drive (hands at 10 and 2) and eliminating all distractions so my mind doesn’t wonder, but I would rather be safe instead of sorry even if it does mean driving like and old lady instead of a 22 year old fella. That hasn’t meant I have had no incidences and I still get my left and right mixed up causing me to be shocking with directions and getting lost on several occasions. A few weeks back I went to visit granny in hospital and on the way home the road was closed due to work being done, a diversion was sign posted but there appeared to be miles too much info on the signs and I got confused and ended up driving around for 2 and a half hours before I made the normally 30 minute journey home.
Overall it’s an amazing relief to have come this far, to go from being unable to drive a few meters as I couldn’t work the gears to being able to drive around the place no bother and be confident in myself and my driving abilities, it has felt like a massive achievement for me. The main reason I wanted to cover this topic in a blog was because when I started writing this blog last year I decided I would help others suffering from difficulties caused by dyslexia and/or dyspraxia and I wanted to pass on techniques and advice that would help them overcome these difficulties or at least cope with them. If there is anyone who has had the same difficulties as me learning to drive but doesn’t want to give in then you should try an automatic and I guarantee you will find it so much easier and once the stress of changing gears has gone you can concentrate on everything else and it becomes second nature in no time at all. 1 or 2 people have said to me alright “oh my god you drive an automatic” and had a bit of a laugh of it but I always respond with the same thing “a lot of big cars only come in automatic as they are luxury cars, so I’m just getting the practice in now for when I’m driving my Audi A8 or Mercedes E-Class”. Besides to look at a car from the outside an automatic looks no different so unless you tell people or your giving them a lift somewhere nobody will ever need to know you’re driving an automatic. I would advise anyone who is finding it difficult to get their head around gears to go down the automatic route.
As always I’d like to thank you once again for taking the time to read my blog, and I welcome any feedback or questions you may have relating to dyslexia and/or dyspraxia and I will do my best to answer them or give you advice. You can post your questions in a comment below or if you want to ask me something in confidence then you’re welcome to email me at mryan1@mycit.ie
Thanks,
Mark